You are ruled by your flesh and so it overcomes you. You will never overcome because you have not allowed the One who has overcome – to be your Lord. You have accepted Him as your Savior but have not allowed Him to be your Lord. By this, you will not know victory and only be acquainted with grief, futility and heartache. Your heart says ‘I love God,’ but your actions prove you want nothing to do with Him.
You play a dangerous game with God, and His patience is wearing thin, and there will come a day when it will be too late for you –
It is time to take a look – at yourself, asking the Lord for His light to shine upon you. So He may cut your heart with the conviction of your sin that will cause you to run to Him – and away from yourself.

We then, as workers together with Him, also plead with you not to receive the grace of God in vain.  For He says:

“In an acceptable time I have heard you,
And in the day of salvation I have helped you.”

Behold, now is the accepted time; behold, now is the day of salvation.- 2 Cor 6:1-2